marry me raul esparza!!

so he might actually be gay although popular opinion swings towards bi these days. but i'm kind of in love with raul esparza.

last night's performance was emotional for him. it was his first since he lost out on a tony to david hyde pierce. he was the favorite to win and he looked visibly upset when he didn't. part of me wants to say, "if you're upset, it's okay to be upset!" the other part of me says, "but don't look so prima donna-ish and at least pretend for 5 seconds that you're happy for david!"

at any rate, after raul's showstopping last song (which was brilliant) people started clapping and whooping wildly. and then a tear started to run down his face. and then the rest of the house was moved to stand for an ovation, at which point, the guy just seemed to lose it. you could tell he was overjoyed at the reception, maybe a bit vindicated. however, he was nominated and he knew he was the favorite for the tony, he knows he's good. really good. but at any rate the tears ran down his face in streams for almost 10 solid minutes and we all stood cheering. quite emotional.

and he's really a beautiful beautiful man. i'm definitely going to be in love with him for a week or so....